For me it's been a journey trying to put my mind, body and spirit in the right place. To fulfill my life so that I don't walk around feeling like half a circle. I think that's why I used drugs for so many years... So for now it takes contrary actions on my part to clear a path in the right spiritual direction. Not just with drugs but in life. Like tonight... I went to meet a group of my close women friends. I felt like staying home and wallowing around with "the crazy committee" in my head. Leave me alone to my own vices and I can literally go crazy. Telling myself I'm horrible, fat, unlovable, not succesful or whatever else. That "head committee" wants me to wallow and they will give me all the reasons in the world to hate myself and hate everyone else even more. But...I didn't... I got up..got dressed...(contrary action) and it was a great time. And I feel good. I feel better.
Film school starts again on tuesday-
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