A new pair of glasses

Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Starting over
Today I am starting all over again. Today everything looks brighter, clearer, and my gratitude is certainly alot better than that dreary cloud I created in my mind yesterday. It's funny how we can sometimes do that. I can have a situation and my own version of the situation can be completely different from someone else. Mind you, we are talking about the exact same situation. Our stories become our reality when we have to shift things around in our heads to make our stores work for us. Yesterday my feelings were hurt. A former friend hurt my ego when she told me she no longer wanted to be a friend to me. For me, charming, loving, and giving as I am, I felt this was an outrage, and I reacted like a two week old puppy, peeing over everything that I had once valued. I have been to seminars, and 12 step meetings, therapists, and mentors looking for guidance on how to behave in this life. Nurturing my mind with "you can do it" or "your the power" or "it's all in your head and your head is WRONG" so today as I ramble on, I look for the new, the positive, the outlook of a grateful person, instead of a spoiled rotten girl with a past. This is my journey into a joyful, free, and serene life.