Valley Heat

Today I felt like my face was melting. The heat in the valley was unbearable! I had a pretty low-key day. Pinkberry with the lovely Clare- who looks amazing even in the strictest heat. We ate our leeches and kept our eyes out for the man who we stole a parking spot from. I think both of us were looking for a little friction in the heat-- but instead he was only "slightly rude" and we continued on our way. I met with Rita and talked about the whole life experience. The search for a mother that is within us all. The need to be taken care of, held, cuddled and told that everything will work out. I left our chat with a sense of security and wonder. I felt a bit over confident perhaps because I texted Mike immediately and broke it off...telling him I needed and wanted more. I definately overstepped my comfort zone- and the results were not what I wanted. I was hoping for something else. Perhaps it's the heat, or the unfullfilled needs..or the friction I seek out- but instead I got silence... and the distinct feeling that God is watching me as the heat cools off- and that by just being myself, it will all be okay.